Living Above the Sun Ministries

Coming home last weekend from a visit to family in Tennessee, my heart was so heavy with all sorts of burdens.  Tears escaped my eyes all day.  On the ride down the mountain I was quiet as my brother drove, every once in a while a tear dripping down my cheek.  I didn't want to feel all of  this, I had been silently crying at my desk that week anticipating the visit.  My anxiety and panic was through the roof, I announced, "I'm not going."  But I had to go, I'm in the Lord's Army.  So here I was, serving my family in a difficult situation and fully loving them with all my heart and emotions.  I wrapped my arms around them, and I loved them right where they were.  I couldn't speak, just tears. God reached down to me and comforted my heart with a song, and on the mountain I penned... "God Loves me in my darkness, and calls me to His light, He is reaching out for me, bringing me back to His side.  God loves me in my failures, and calls me to...

  "Let us be grateful to people who make us happy, they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom." This summer I suffered a severe mental breakdown that put me in behavioral health hospital for a little over a week.  The quote above was written outside my door.  This had been building for the past decade or two and our present conditions made the perfect storm for everything to burst open.  It was a sinking feeling when my primary care physician looked at me and said, "There's nothing more I can do to help you."  She told my friend who had taken me to see her that morning to take me directly to Behavioral Health Hospital on Billingsly, don't go home to get anything, don't stop on the way.  She told me based on all I had spilled to her that I didn't have time, that I could only go on a few more months in the condition I was in mentally. I was assessed by many doctors and nurses.  I had to strip, searched and put on scrubs to make sure ...